Viola

It was a good day overall.. and I wanted to share my excitement with someone.. then i realized that person is not around. 

I dont know if he is coming back. I dont even know how he is doing. 

That made me sad. 

6 hours ago, Guest getsumei said:

sharing time

 

i think it started way back 2011 pa but never really recognized it since i was able to go out and keep my mind off things.

 

come 2020, when quarantine started, things piled up and what broke me was when people in my family suddenly got diagnosed with diseases. non covid, but life threatening.

 

i realized that im under depression after finding myself crying while i was working at home. i looked around and saw boxes upon boxes of items i never really used. tldr, the state of my unit actually reflected what i have been going thru and i never realized until then.

 

tldr

 

presently, what im doing as self therapy is to take a selfie of my self whenever im crying. i look at it and talk to it. i use it to keep myself grounded to reality and afirm my resolution of getting over this.

 

i believe that depression is partly a test of resolve. so i think small steps of acknowledging the problem and addressing those.

 

to be honest, after this, i'll be taking another selfie.

Thank you for sharing. We all have different ways of dealing with depression.

This pandemic has tested a lot of us. We were forced to face problems that we avoided pre-pandemic.  

I hope, you and me and everybody else going through the similar struggles get through this in one piece.

If you need an outlet, post here. Share your thoughts. Take care.

I havent been in a good head space for more than a week now. There are days, you just cry. You try to pick yourself up but you just cant do it.

I tried to cheer myself by watching comedies and I still cried. I just want to be happy. Smile a real smile. Laugh my heart out. 

Wth each day of this pandemic, it is getting harder and harder for me.. and there are others like me.. maybe in even worse state of mind.

I forgot to eat last night so im eating breakfast today...

I paint when i want to cry... Been painting the whole day. 

3 hours ago, Nightwriter said:

Hi there!

My investments goes to a 100% on Mutual funds because they’re a safe investment. As far as I know about, it’s only for people who have more money to risk , it’s not something you should base your retirement strategy on. 
 

No idea how to do cryptocurrency. Like Nightwriter, my money is on mutual funds, bonds and a bit of stocks. 

However, I would like to learn how to invest in cryptocurrency. 

A correlation study sounds nice. Better if we can create a predictive analysis. 🙂

I really need to sleep more.

Missing someone beyond my reach. It just shows how a couple of weeks can put a dent on one's life. It wont be long, I'll get back to my normal routine of being alone.

I never should have entertained the idea of someone else being there for me. I never should have depended on someone else for comfort 

I'll be ok. I'll be ok. Or maybe I won't. 

_------_-------------

To a certain someone,

Just be ok. Even if I want to reach out, I can't. So just be ok.

11 hours ago, Do Better said:

Bonus - SOY MILK has 7g of protein per cup (240ml). Will not give you lactose issues, you can mix in your spirulina powder. If you have your favorites please share them here. No wrong or right reply. Stay healthy 🙂

Maybe i should try going vegan.. i prefer soy milk over regular milk. What's the protein content of almond milk?

13 hours ago, Do Better said:

Top Protein Food Sources For Vegetarians and Vegans

First on the list is Oats or Oatmeal. 16g of protein in Quaker Instant Oatmeal (100g serving)

here's my source

As someone highly dependent on easy to prepare food, is rolled oats better than the instant oatmeal? It is also perfect for making overnight oats.

12 hours ago, Do Better said:

Tofu from Soybean curds has 10g protein per half cup serving (124g). Easy to cook and absorbs flavors well. 

I am in love with tofu. I could eat tofu everyday. Im not vegetarian or vegan though. 

You and I are not romantically linked.. but we do share a common bond.

I cannot reach you now. But i do hope you find what you are looking for. I do hope you emerge out of this unscathed. 

And if by off-chance you think of me, Im drowning but I'm still fighting. I'll be ok. 

So strive to be ok. 

Its been a tough few weeks. It feels like im walking on eggshells. Im afraid to move in fear of breaking something and have fingers pointed at me.

An update on the community pantry..

1) we launched ours last saturday, coordinated with the church and in less than an hour, the pantry is empty.

2) as me and my cousins are all working, we cannot sustain manning the pantry, so we directed all donations to our church and they are the ones handling it. We still get an overwhelming amount of donations on a daily basis but those are all directed to the church now.

3) 3 other independent pantries opened up in our community. These are organized by individuals unlike ours where the church oversees our donations.

4) our barangay captain wants all organizers to coordinate with them for supposedly implementing health protocols. I answered them how they can implement it when their own tanods and kagawads no longer wear face masks and face shields. Many members of the community also reminded our kapitan hownhe gathered our neighbors to raffle off "bikes" for his youtube channels before starting to give out the 4k ayuda.

5) organizers informed him that they dont want to mix charity with politics.

Here are some photos of our pantry last saturday. The church helped us maintain social distancing, they did crowd control and most importantly, they kept people out of the sun by providing them shade. 

Instant ramen again.. topped with adobo flakes though

3 hours ago, Nightwriter said:

Hi Guys! I'm watching an Anime series called Attack on Titan and I'm still on the 1st season.

Manga has ended, you can read it if you want. 

Attack on Titan also has a live action adaptation that's pretty good.

Go Away, It Hurts, Lonely and Ugly.. by 2ne1... Kpop music in the morning 

Someone said they'll be there.. and without any warning disappeared. I dont know what i did or what i said. 

But if that's what they want, i cant really do anything about it. Im not going after them or beg them to stay.

I'll just let them be. 

And be sad that it ended suddenly.

Instant yoppoki. 

On 4/18/2021 at 1:22 PM, Ice said:

Broccoli 

I need this.. i love broccoli.

Unfortunately, lunch is left over kfc famous bowl a.k.a. mashed potato with some chicken and corn.

Me and my cousins are starting one as well. We reached out to people we know, and in less than a day we have more donations than what we can handle. So we are enlisting the help of our church to set this up. We havent even started and we already received overwhelming response from people who want to help.

I love you by my favorite kpop group, 2ne1.

Im not a member of landers.. simply because there isn't any nearby landers. So with that being said, i vote for snr because of accessibility.

Another instant ramen night.. i added dumplings and egg

Netflix has a weird new show.. the way of the househusband. 

Ive been feeling down since last week, but this show made me smile.

Office sent this earlier for lunch