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I'll start. I am depressed. I haven't been clinically diagnosed but im seeing a counselor for me to manage my depression. Why, because one day I said to myself, wouldn't it be nice if im dead. That's when i know i needed to seek help first from a counselor. There are bad days and good days. Most days are just tolerable. I wake up knowing that today is going to be bad. If i wake up without the feeling of loneliness, then I know it'll be a good day.. but how long will it remain good I have learned my triggers and i try to avoid them. One if the things i experience is the quick change in emotions. I am quick to anger and sadness. However, it is a struggle to be happy. For example, today is a bad day for me. I woke up at 330am, with this feeling of loneliness and i started crying. I know what triggered it. With no one to talk to at this hour, i turn to tonight or stars to air out my thoughts. Hence, i started this thread. Do you also experience bad days like i do? To add, my counselor said, i should practice self care and i am confused. What is self care? That could be for another topic though.