Unwritten

I dreamt I was backing out of a parking lot. I set the gear on reverse and slowly press on the gas but the car does not move back.  I continue stepping on the gas and can feel and hear the engine roaring and tires spinning and screeching but can't make any progress pulling back out and instead the car just slowly inches forward .

When I feel depression setting in.  I start creating/building or working on things. It doesn't matter how small or how complex it is and before the project gets done, my bout of depression has already dissipated. More importantly, I'm left with a product that may be functional or not but still give me a sense of accomplishing something.

 That's how I cope or should I say turn the tables on depression. 🙂

On 3/3/2021 at 2:53 PM, Viola said:

I'll start.

Why, because one day I said to myself, wouldn't it be nice if im dead.  That's when i know i needed to seek help first from a counselor....

... With no one to talk to at this hour, i turn to tonight or stars to air out my thoughts.

I can't say I know how you feel or what you are going trough. But I know it's something real and a true struggle to find that thinnest thread  or sliver of light to believe in the beauty of life and that it's worth living.  Hang in there.  

Vincent  (Starry Starry Night)- Joanna Wang

Everybody Hurts - REM

Moonlight over Kennon Rd. driving Down from Baguio.

Let Her Cry - Darius Rucker (Hootie & The Blowfish)

Really feeing positive and accomplished and  On my drive home I heard Ritt Momney's cover  but I still prefer the Original... 🙂

Put Your Records On - Corrine Bailey Rae 

If seeing is believing, then blessed are the blind.

Well balanced diet.... Don't skip meals and stay active and get sufficient rest and sleep. No smoking/vaping and only occasional alcohol intake. 

Feelin positive... 🙂

Israel Kamakawiwo'ole -  'Over The Rainbow' & 'What A Wonderful World' Medley"

I had this mad crush on a girl from the Nursing department in our university and I tried hard as hell to find ways and means to be a hero or the one who saves the day for her...like a knight in shinning armor. My chance finally presented itself during one afternoon that was raining cats and dogs. I saw her ,nursing outfit and all, waiting for a small break in the rain to make it across the walkways to the next building . Umbrella in tow I made  a beeline towards her,  she saw me and she smiled, my heart skipped a beat, and in my mind I was claiming a small victory.  But then, in my excitement, I guess my feet forgot how to walk and I slipped badly that in a flash I found myself on my back on the very wet pavement. The umbrella  flew out of my hands and got carried away by the strong wind gusts. I looked up and she nonchalantly walked past me in the rain and not giving any indication that she knew me.  My butt and back hurts but not as much as my heart and pride. #basang-sisiw-feels 😄

Somebody with a toxic personality that never fails to drain the light and life out of everything they say or do.

YOU... a  beginning that is actually the end of... ME. 🙂

My greatest fear was drowning... So I took up SCUBA diving and became a PADI Dive Master and Assistant Instructor. 🙂

Thank you manilastars. I now have a place to go to and  de-stress after a hard days work and allowed me to re-establish connections long thought to have been lost.

In my own little way, to leave the world a little bit better than when I found it. 🙂

I believe in second chances too.

Invest in pharma stocks, gamestop, and buy a few bitcoins 🙂

And BTW, here's the winning number to the PowerBall 1 Billion Dollar lotetry jackpot... 😄  

Egg noodle Pho courtesy of my Vietnamese landlord. 🙂

BORACAY...  I hope to see you again sometime soon.

It's 7PM Sunday evening... and jus got back from the plant. Tired and stressed out for a grinder that's sure to come this last weekend of Feb.

....I pop open a cold Bud Light. Hit play on the link below, close my eyes and find myself transported to some tropical beach somewhere and  enjoying the sound of waves and feeling the calming ocean breeze. 😄

Albatross - Peter Green's Fleetwood Mac

Regensberg, Germany.  The Old tower stone bridge across the Danube with the historic Salzstadel by the river bank.

  * The Danube runs across Germany to Vienna, Austria, to Bratislava, Slovakia, to Budapest, Hungary, to Belgrade, Serbia, to Bucharest, Romania and finally to the Black sea at the borders of Romania, Moldova , and Ukraine.   It is a major waterway for commerce and industry and as well as travel and tourism.

On 2/16/2021 at 8:46 PM, Do Good Things said:

That blur gives a feeling of danger 🙂 I hope it's just the slow camera shutter due to low light. Ingat sa pag drive!

I was juts travelling at under 30MPH and the seeming white streak on the road is inches of packed snow and ice.  At stop lights, you slow down well ahead  and roll to a stop. If you hit the brakes, you'll just continue to slide forward and end up in the middle of the intersection. 😄

Rather than just thinking outside  the box, find delight in shattering it. 

It takes more than just fire and passion to sustain and nurture a relationship and there is that missing ingredient that somehow I fail to grasp and hold on to.