Viola

Another weird and vivid dream thay i dont want to forget but i will

It started with me working and the internet went down. So i took my laptop and a makeshift table, went up a post and hooked myself up directly sa cable internet and started working. Not minding the uncomfortable position or that im physically defying the laws of physics 

Then i heard someone call my name, i looked down(because im still propped up in a post) and it was my ex. My first bf actually.

I went down the post and we talked and i asked him if he has internet. He did and so we went to his house. After that, he took me back to my house and we rekindled our relationship.

For some reason, he and i attended this party where couples need to ask each other 5 very personal questions. Next scene was apparently, we are now living together but we were fighting because i never asked him to go to any comic cons.. and i told him it is because ive never attended one and he changed into this drag queen and he said if you love me, we'll go to the comic con in LA because lady gaga is going to be there. 

Someone who cant decide what they want. I call them urong-sulong type. Just go for it of you want it or leave. 

One of the things i know is a wrong move on my end which ended up hurting me is trusting someone to keep a promise and then when i look back, they never really said the words "i promise".. so there was never really a promise to keep. Wrong move I assumed they promised but they never did.

Im sorry for still relying on you. Im sorry that i still seek you for comfort. I'll do better. Please bear with me while i re-learn to rely on myself again. I know, I am not your burden.

Last night i got all drunk. Had a wine and cheese night with my team. It would be awesome to be with someone special though. 

Are we limited discussing the thread starter's wrong moves or wrong moves in general?

In my opinion, may wrong move for other women pero right move sa iba. So get to know muna the person you like.

But ung wrong move for me is ung naninigurado muna bago mag moves talaga. I dont believe in wasting time, so if someone likes me, i wish they would tell me right away so i can respond accordingly.

Would things have been different if i came in your life first? 18yeard ago, when i had to say goodbye and from time to time i still think of you. I wonder if things could have ended differently if only...

You werent the one that got away, you were the one that i had to let go because someone else had you first. 

Dinner. Soft taco tuna and marble potato, corn and mushrooms. 

Fruits for breakfast

Lunch potatoes and tofu

Veggie omelette for lunch. Need more protein

Dinner: stir fried veggies with chicken breast and cauliflower rice

Rolled oats with apples and a cup of tea on the side

Lunch... Forgot to take a pic when it was still pretty. Soft tortilla taco with lettuce, shredded cabbage, carrots, onions, tuna, and egg. 

Prepared it myself. Accomplishment un since i dont cook. 

Day 3: korean gilgeori(?) on toast. Basically some kind of omelette with cheese on crust less wheat bread.

Dinner, some kind of pasta and pork?

Omurice daw. 

You had a glimpse of happiness ... Then you get ghosted. Its a vicious cycle...

Seriously, is it so hard to say "hey it is not working out, let's stop".  

Sigh. 

Breakfast. char Siu with garlic veggies. Part of my meal subscription. Im weirded out that im eating breakfast because i normally just drink coffee 

Tea from.my fave brand, Clippers. This infusion is called Love Me Truly. First time I tried this infusion though.

Vegetarian-friendly chocolate mousse cake. 

Already having a bad day at 6am. I know it'll be a bad day as soon as i woke up. I wanted to send you a message to let you know that im not doing well. But i stopped because im not allowed to do that anymore. 

I guess, i'll just try make things better. 

Starting a coffee business so im trying the different roasts.  Yes its in a tea bag.  For now.. it'll be in individual foil packages soon.  But let me just enjoy this coffee and make my assessment. 

I should have my final products by october. 

This blend is earthy and has a slight chocolately taste. I like it. 

I survived this week.... Next week uli. One day at a time...

I forgot there is no dine in yet.. so as much as i want to drink this. I have to wait until im home...

So im thinking of getting a pag-ibig house loan. The problem is, the land title is under my aunt's name and it is for a larger land size than the lot my house is built on.

For context, this lot was an inheritance from my grandfather to his 9 kids. While he was alive, he equally divided the lot and built houses on each lot section and gave the houses to his kids. 

But to make things simple, the land title was transferred under the name of two of my aunts as they are the two eldest of the 9 siblings.

None of the 9 siblings want to legally divide the land so they could all have their own titles.  They said it is too complicated. Me and my cousins are willing but we cant do anything because the lot is not ours. 

But because of this situation, am i eligible to get a pag-ibig loan? I want to renovate this house.