Viola

Woke up from a nightmare.  I wish i can cuddle next to someone and calm my nerves. 

There's really something comforting when enveloped in a tight embrace. 

Oh well, since i cant go back to sleep now, i'll just put in some work. 

Being on a no rice diet is much harder than i think. When my body automatically reaches for the rice when it is time to eat. I failed during lunch. I was already halfway through lunch before i realized i was eating rice. I succeeded this dinner. I will try again tomorrow and be more intentful. 

I want to start dating again...so i'm officially on a diet, after i eat these two boxes of pizza I just ordered. 

Lazy Sunday is not so lazy. My mind is restless and full of the following thoughts 

1) i want to finish this painting today 

2) i need to finish that code and that other report 

3) i'm excited im getting my first vax dose this week 

4) i want to reach out but why 

5) how do i get a housing loan to renovate my house 

6) should i try axie or similar crypto-earning games 

7) lastly, i really want to eat steak today. 

Anybody up? Need someone to talk to 

TGIF.. slept for an hour and now getting ready to present the project i worked on last night. I cant wait for this week to be over 

Spent the night finishing a project due at 7am. At least i still have roughly 4 hours to sleep. I love coding 

Finally internet is back up. Couldnt function without stable internet. It really has become one of our basic needs... More so during this pandemic

This week hasnt been going my way... First i got sick.. now internet is down with no advisories...

So i was sick for two days and i thought i recovered today. But it looks like i still need time to rest. I dont feel anything except for general weakness. Like i was robbed of my strength. I worked in the morning and around lunch, i was distracted by something i read. So i decided to take a nap and i've been in and out of sleep since and i feel so weak again. Given, i also forgot to eat today. I ate some noodles just now.. so hopefully i regain some of my strength back.

Having a great day at work so far.. then you see something that makes you both sad and angry... 

Note to self: make more meaningful IRL connections. Online connections can be fickle. 

So i ended up staying in bed and filing for a sick leave because i dont feel too good today. I wish someone can cook me a hot bowl of sopas. The perfect food when you feel sick. 

Monday, back to work. It'll be a day of coding and more coding. I just want to curl up in bed and sleep. 

Feeling lightheaded and all sorts after one bottle of beer... Great job... Im so lame. 

Woke up and was greeted with bad news. Is it to early to start drinking?

All meetings done for the day.. now on to "focused" work. But i'll rest my poor back first. 

I need a hug.. this week has been stressful and it looks like i'll be working this weekend too.

Marupok - when you walk away and get pulled back in with a single line.

Give me one reason to stay here 

And i'll turn right back around

Ok...the excitement with the whole vacation thing has worn off. Im now bored. Cant do anything. Cant go anywhere. Nobody to spend my vacay with.  Hays.

I havent had a drink in a long long while. Since I am vacation, I can drink again. 

Vacation Day 1 - i woke up early as always and checked my work emails before I realized I'm on vacation. 

I resumed painting then went out to eat samgyup. Went home right away and now Im so full, I just want to sleep.

I cant wait for this day to be over so i can start my 9-day vacation 

Just started crying for a very good reason. That wasnt the reaction i was expecting. But thank you. Take care always.