After a few years as Army Officer with the Engineering Brigade  , i spent a decade working in the BPO Industry.  While I can say that during my 4 year stint in the Army was a life changer , the 11 years in the BPO industry was generally Wild , Exciting and mostly stressful .  On my 11th year ,  i decided that i will have to cut short my BPO adventures and started working for a company that shows a promising prospect in the mining and construction industry . 

In 2012 i was primarily station in Camarines Norte working as Admin Staff for Gold Mining Project , when there were  issues about  production discrepancies I was delegated to conduct an ad hoc performance and production evaluation . From an Admin Staff,  I was Promoted to Process Engineer overnight . 11 months after I was hired I was the  Process Implementation MAnager for the site and my Roller Coaster Career started  from that point on.

One of the good things about my work is that i travel a lot most of the time . Over the span of 10 years i have visited most of Southern Luzon, the Entirety of Northern Mindanao , most of the Islands of Tawi Tawi, about 3/4 of ARMM and the southern part of Palawan.  I also stayed at the contested Waters of West Philippine Sea since i was stationed at Pagasa Island for about 10 month 

During the height of PAndeminc , despite the travel restrictions and ever changing Travel Guidelines , i was one of the few people in our company that was given special clearances to travel to active project sites . The only Quarantine that i experience was being confine to a One Star hotel at Tagbiliran Bohol for 1 one night , just so that i complied the provincial quarantine guidelines . While  I am a firm believer about the dangers and how fatal Covid 19 presents I was really sure that i will not succumb to that disease . 

Because of the limited deployment of competent technical personnel , most of the site and department managerial functions were temporarily assigned to me by default . this method while practical and efficient,  has slowly develop a mental strain on my part  . im developing work insomnia , i have to drink significant amount of alcohol in order for me to have an 8 hour sleep and despite of training capable subordinates , i cant shake the feeling that somewhere in the work process , things will go awry . i have to exert extra effort just to be focus.  

from my own perspective , everything is not good enough , while i encourage my immediate subordinates to be creative and Innovative , i frown on their inefficient and untimely output . Maybe im just saturated with work or maybe i have not noticed that my added responsibility has changed my outlook without me noticing it . Im slowly becoming to a boss that i always avoided . 

can work really change a person ? or im just not used to having this amount of authority that want to impress my superiors rather than earning the respect of my subordinates and peers .